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Mateo’s newborn photos

Today I got to spend a bit of time with fellow designer, photographer and SCAD classmate Tim Putt and his wife Magally to take their son, Mateo’s newborn photos. At just nine days old Mateo arrived nice and sleepy for his first photos.

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In just a moment or two with Mateo I took one of my favorite photos of the day of him.

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He woke up relatively quickly and greeted us with lots of smiles.

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Now I am beginning to think all the designers kids have a thing for shooting me the bird during their photo session. It’s tough sometimes to judge what these squirmy little babies do when you’re squinting to see them through the camera. I recall how much his hands were moving when I took this photo and telling Tim about the last little one who did this. Of course reviewing the photos afterwards I couldn’t help but laugh seeing this little outtake photo of Mateo.

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While he was awake we took macro photos of his feet. Mateo has a unique little birth mark on his ankle and he proudly stretched this foot out towards me twice.

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It’s amazing how quickly newborns can go from being so content to very needy. These next two shots were taken only moments apart.

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After a feeding he returned adorable as could be so we wrapped him for a couple shots.

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Of course I couldn’t help but admire his sweet little lips as he remained so content.

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We could tell little Mateo was tired but just wasn’t dozing off for us so Magally fed him again and then Tim worked his magic and rocked him to sleep. Beforehand we placed him in one of my favorite cocoon wrap’s made by an awesome knitter I found on etsy. Most babies seem to feel pretty cozy in it just like Mateo.

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He seemed to wake up rather easily so the first few shots after he dozed off I left him exactly how he was and just prayed I could work fast enough before he woke up.

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It was evident that he wasn’t totally zonked out even in his sleepy state so I spent a little time just admiring him as he rested comfortably. He gave us a little smirky smile.

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Though he was certainly resting well for photos I can almost always tell by their eyes & eyebrows if their truly in a deep sleep. I could tell as I took this photo that his sleepiness likely wouldn’t last long but we continued to try more photos.

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He was so comfortable and curly still.

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It was great being able to work with Tim & Magally who were very supportive and certainly offered some creative ideas for photos. As we began contemplating a new more creative and challenging poses I decided to take the next series of photos just in case Mateo would wake up. Looking back I’m glad I did because these are a few of my favorite photos of the day.

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As I suspected, he wasn’t too thrilled with the idea of other poses. We tried a few and it was apparent that it was time to give him a break. Before Tim, Magally and Mateo left we took a quick shot of the three together. I think by the time we took this shot all four of us were tired so it ended up being the quickest shot of the day. I was told it’s their first family photo of the three of them together.

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Tim & Magally I hope your family and friends enjoy the photos of Mateo. You both have definitely been blessed with a sweet little boy. Best wishes to you three!

Sweet little Jackson

Last week I got the opportunity to photograph Alex & his new baby brother Jackson. Alex is one of the first newborns I photographed in 2008 and was the first baby I’ve photographed who was adopted. He was definitely one of the most memorable babies I photographed that first year because he came to me so sleepy and I still remember to have been one of the most content babies I’ve photographed. Many of you may have read my personal feelings about adoption after photographing Isaiah last fall. It really is truly special to be a part of capturing those first moments for a family that you know treasures their newest little ones. So when I heard my neighbors, Ben & Renee were adopting again, I couldn’t be more excited to share a few special moments with them and their newborn son. It was equally exciting to know I’d get to photograph Alex again for the first since he was six months old. It’s just amazing how much he’s grown in two years.

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Alex is one of the sweetest little two year old boys I’ve gotten to photograph. He was a little nervous but do you blame him when I had my big camera pointed in his face when he preferred to be playing with the toys.

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We started out taking the photos with Alex so he could do much more fun things like play with toys while we photographed Jackson. We attempted a couple photos of him with his new baby brother. He seemed interested in the idea at first and then we placed Jackson down on him and I think his squirmy little brother made him a little more nervous.

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We tried a photo of them laying beside one another instead. I have to admit knowing that they’re both so young I wasn’t holding my breath that I’d have them both looking at me and smiling. It just never happens that easily. I think this photo really captures the moment best. You can see Alex’s nervousness and curiosity shining through this quick candid shot.

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Alex got up quickly so we focused on trying to take a few photos of Jackson while he was awake. This little peanut is just too adorable for words.

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Seeing how Jackson arrived awake and alert we decided to make the most of the moments and take a photo with Renee and the kids too. Something tells me she’s going to be one busy lady this year. :)

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It’s always sweet to see mothers with their new little ones.

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Renee’s mother came to help out while we took photos so I made sure to take a photo of Jackson with his grandmother while he was awake.

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We began to think of things we could do to try to help Jackson get sleepy. He was so content but didn’t seem to be sleepy. So we wrapped him but he was so active so this little wrap didn’t last long.

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I managed to snap a few macro photos of his feet while he was awake.

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When Alex was a newborn I had taken a foot photo of just one of his feet so I made sure to take a similar photo of one of Jackson’s feet.

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Alex joined us for one more photo. It’s amazing how much a baby’s little foot changes in two years.

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Jackson was still pretty alert so we decided to try taking a few photos of him in the same newborn hat Alex had worn during his newborn photos. We tried positioning him a few different ways but found he wasn’t thrilled with the other poses.

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But when you’re this cute you really don’t have to be posed. He’s priceless just as he is.

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We tried everything and this little guy was still awake. Shortly after taking this photo we decided to call it a day because we had planned to meet again over the weekend to take some photos with Jackson and his daddy.

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Fast forward two days and Jackson at just ten days old returned for a few more photos. My fingers were crossed that this little guy might be sleepy this time around. He sure looked a little more cozy when he first arrived.

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So he wasn’t sleepy when he first arrived but we still captured a few priceless moments like this one.

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Like virtually every baby I’ve photographed, he loved being put in a wrap and bowl.

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I was prepared to catch split second moments, like a sneeze.

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Of course I couldn’t resist taking a photo of his sweet little lips.

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We waited patiently and hoped he might get a little sleepy in the cozy wrap. As you can see he was wide awake but so content.

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One of the shots we really wanted to try was Jackson in Ben’s arm. He was awake but very cooperative for this pose.

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I feel like I’ve been jinxing all the daddy’s that come for photos lately. If it isn’t obvious, Jackson peed a split second after I took this photo of him in Ben’s arm. Thankfully Ben was a great sport and I think he and Renee will agree the photos were well worth the accident.

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We tried another pose or two but Jackson was beginning to get fussy. He finally began to fall asleep but every time we tried a new pose he’d wake right up. So here’s the best sleeping shot of the day with Ben & Renee.

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We began to talk about maybe waiting a little while to see if he’d fall into a deep newborn sleep as I was noticed him dozing off. But we could tell he knew…just take a look at this priceless photo of Ben, Renee & Jackson.

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Ben & Renee I hope your family and friends enjoy the photos of your boys. Congrats again on your newest little blessing!

My baby’s heartbeat, photos, and an update

“When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place.” ~ Unknown

This past week seemed like it’d never end. I know since hearing the news that I’m pregnant again that we have had quite a few of you just as anxious as us to hear a little reassurance. After miscarrying three time over the years I have to tell you the biggest fear I have in pregnancy is the first trimester. I’ve spent a lot of time this past week resting and keeping myself busy when I did have energy so that my mind wouldn’t begin thinking about the past or the risks.

Today I had my first ultrasound to help confirm the due date. Knowing that I’ve had a history of irregular dates they wanted to be certain they were close with the due date and of course we prayed the ultrasound would help us feel more confident that this little one was going to be okay. Jason and I agreed we’d take the kids to the ultrasound. We’ve always been very honest with them and honestly they help keep my nerves a little more calm when I’m as emotional as I’ve been lately. As I found myself extraordinarily nervous about to head into the doctor’s office Hope and I took a quick photo. I have reminded her the last two days how happy I was that she’d be there because I really feel like she’s my good luck charm. I began to think back to the past. Call me suspicious but she was there for Jaylen’s first ultrasound and he made it here safely. During the last pregnancy she was in school and I remember feeling so empty hearted not having her there beside me. Here’s me and my baby girl (aka my good luck charm).

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We’ve definitely embraced this pregnancy and the support surrounding us has been amazing. It was so reassuring again today walking in realizing how many in our doctor’s office are pulling for everything to work out well for us this time. We were greeted with so many smiles today and it was so reassuring knowing how on edge they knew we felt after our last pregnancy.

I’m quite a proud Momma…here to make sure everyone knows that this little one is doing so well. I was brought to tears by my little one’s amazing heartbeat. 166 beats per minute to be precise. They told us it’s a great sign. As far as due dates they were nearly right on and only different by two days. The ultrasound estimated the baby to be 7 weeks 4 days and the original estimation leaves me at 7 weeks 6 days. When ultrasounds are within week of the estimated due date they keep the original due date given so that means tomorrow I’ll be 8 weeks along. And well, this little one should arrive around March 8, 2011. The doctor said give or take a week or two because of how unpredictable babies can be. Given my history we won’t be surprised if it’s a week or two sooner than that due date but we’ll just have to see what God has planned.

I know you all are probably curious to see the first photos of this little one. It’s still early so it’s tough to see much, but here’s a few photos our third little one thriving within my belly.

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There’s no forgetting
I suppose some may think it’s been easy to just pick up and move on since the last miscarriage. I wish I could tell you all I’ve totally forgotten about it. Even after finding out that I’m pregnant again, it’s impossible for me to erase the memories or the hope I once had for the little one I lost. But the quote by Oscar Wilde helps me think a little more optimistically about it all, “What seems to us as bitter trials are often blessings in disguise.” I think this time around God’s making sure I feel every single ounce of this pregnancy to help remind me how important this little one is. But no matter how much time passes I know God’s going to find his own ways to remind me of the little angels I’ve lost. Today on our way to the doctor it was only ironic that I hear the Kelly Clarkson song “Already Gone”, you may or may not remember me writing about the impact this song had on me after the miscarriage. It was the song I heard on the way to the hospital before first surgery and every time I hear it I swear it reminds me of that little one I lost in October. I’ve been so thankful that the radio has played it a little less often lately so to hear it for the first time in a while today brought back a rush of memories and emotions. As I sadly thought back to those moments today it seemed to symbolize a more hopeful meaning. And though I know my heart will never completely let go of the sweet thoughts for the little ones I’ve lost I now have so much hope for this little one that’s now on the way.

What are the risks now?
Honestly, the doctor said things are looking very good for us. All the prenatal lab work came back normal, including my progesterone levels. Since I was pregnant with Hope the doctor discovered my prosterone levels were low and needed to be supplemented in order to sustain the pregnancy. Every pregnancy after I was given progesterone for the first trimester. I was relieved to hear this time the test came back normal because I wasn’t so sure I could endure progesterone making me feel more sick than I already feel. I asked the doctor if they’d keep checking my levels or if there were any concerns given my past and he said that the levels are at an adequate level and show no reason to show concerns so I will escape this first trimester without having to take it! The doctor knows how incredibly nervous I am after miscarrying a few times now and he reminded me that typically risks of miscarrying are 20% of all pregnancies. He said once we hear a heartbeat that risk goes down to 3%. I’m not one to rely on numbers, especially after the fall and being told that 2 or 3 surgeries rarely happen and are virtually unheard of. But yes, seeing this little one’s heartbeat today brought me some much needed reassurance. Every time I’ve seen it before I’ve been blessed with a little one. The doctor reminded me that typically they look back at the history of previous viable pregnancies and given that we’re hoping this pregnancy goes smoothly. Lord knows I need a little break from all the risks and concerns and really deserve to just enjoy the moments of anticipation that come with expecting a child.

Is it a girl or boy?
I have to laugh at how many times we’ve been asked either that or if we wanted a girl or boy. It’s entirely too early to know and to be honest we won’t be finding out until the baby is born. I’m sorry if any of you are disappointed with the fact that we hope to be surprised this time around. We look at it this way. We have a girl. We have a boy. Honestly, we don’t really care what we have as long as our little one arrives into this world healthy. We didn’t find out Hope was a girl until the day she was born and it still is one of the most amazing surprises we’ve experienced. We sure loved knowing that Jaylen was a boy before he was born but to be honest, our family doesn’t need to be wrapped up in the materialistic hopes that come with knowing the sex of your child. We have this feeling it’ll bring a great sense of anticipation and help us appreciate this little one that much more.

How in the world will you do everything with three kids?
Yes, I’ve already had a few people asking me this question. I knew it was coming so I may as well answer it now. People ask me that now with just two kids and I really don’t know “how”, I just have faith that everything will work out as it was meant to be. I realize it may mean that this coming year I will pick my battles wisely. My family comes first. I have absolutely no intent to ever stop teaching. Obviously there’ll be a little break for maternity leave but I have every intent to continue teaching full time as I have been. This year I will begin my tenure track ILP which is a three year process. I still don’t know how I will do it all, but I have faith that I will conquer it just as I have so many other things in life. I’m thankful to have such amazing and supportive colleagues and students at Valencia who I know stand behind everything I do. I will somehow complete my Masters degree at Savannah College of Art & Design. I will likely take less classes than I have in the last three years but I know at this point my family and career take precedence. I know I also have amazing support at SCAD and something tells me taking a little pause in my degree won’t put me as far behind as I once feared. I will also continue pursuing my photography business. It will leave me far more limited with time but I suppose that means I will take on only photography commitments I have time for. Something tells me being a little more selective in my work may end up building me that much more of an amazing portfolio. I am sure once the little one arrives I’ll slow down photography commitments dramatically but I have this feeling in the months ahead you all will begin to see an awesome new collection of newborn photography leading up to the day that I am able to spend all this time and energy into photographing my own little one.

So that’s it. Our update that we know many of you have been waiting to hear more about. In about a month we’ll return for my next OB appointment which will include another ultrasound. Thank you all once again for all the amazingly kind words of encouragement and support you’ve sent our way. There’s no doubt this little one is loved. 32 weeks and 1 days to go until we get to meet our little newest blessing.

My trip at the park with Jaden

A little over a week ago I met with Stacy and Jaden at Carl T. Langston Park and Dickson Azalea park for photos. Many of you, especially from Valencia, should remember Jaden from when I photographed him as a newborn and again just before he turned a year old. Yes, Dennis’ little boy has developed quite the personality and was full of charisma when I was out taking photos with him. It’s hard to believe Jaden’s almost two!

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Stacy warned me that he had a cute little smile where he’d squish up his nose. Although I certainly strived to get a variety of facial expressions his funny little smile certainly shined through on many of his photos which I think certainly help show off his cute little personality.

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Dickson Azalea park is a pretty dreamy hidden spot near downtown Orlando full of a nice nature scenery. We found a set of steps for Jaden to sit on and this series of photos are among my favorites from the day. He seemed a little unsure why we had him sitting on these dirty old steps at first.

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Of course his curiosity took over and he picked up a twig from the ground. I love when moments like this happen perfectly and aren’t planned.

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And yes, there’s that hilarious cute little smile of Jaden’s again. He cracks me up. :)

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At almost two I worried how interested he’d be in this park knowing that it was merely a trail with some great views of nature. Thankfully he was quite the explorer and pointed out quite a few things to us showing his interest in being at the park.

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Jaden was quite curious and noticed a lot of little critters and the small streams nearby. I just love how observant he looks in this photo.

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Every time I found a nice bit of light I tried to grab Jaden’s attention for a photo. As you can see he’s quite the character!

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Considering how most two year olds are pretty defiant for photos I thought Jaden was pretty amazing to take photos of last week. He certainly wasn’t shy in front of the camera.

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Did I mention he enjoyed exploring the park?

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We made sure to sneak a few photos of Stacy and Jaden together before we left. His personality certainly shines through in these photos too.

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Dennis & Stacy I hope you enjoy the photos from last week. It was fun exploring the park with your little man!

A few moments with Tayler & JT

I suppose this is the year that many of the newborns that I’ve photographed in the last 2 1/2 years return so I can capture a few more moments with them. When I heard my friend Shanna would be visiting I realized I’d get another chance to photograph a little one to share just how much they’ve grown. For those who have been following my photography since the start you’ll likely remember JT. Yes, JT is the very first newborn I photographed just three months after I had Jaylen. Yes, he’s the very first one on this little journey I’ve been on. At the time I recall studying newborn photography realizing that my little guy was no longer a newborn. JT’s newborn photos certainly was a turning point for me where I knew newborn photography was something I was interested in pursuing further. If you don’t recall, you can look back in flickr and see little JT when he was just 11 days old when I was such a rookie with photographing newborns. Fast forward 2 1/2 years and JT has grown so much. I was warned by my friend Shanna that he was a challenge to photograph because her little man is so full of energy. It took a little patience but was a lot of fun spending time with JT.

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While they were here it rained. Thankfully there was no lightening so we let the boys go out and play in the rain. It was really tough to photograph them together but I really enjoyed photographing JT who had a blast in the rain. Yes, I’m crazy enough to take my camera out when it’s pouring. I think when you see these photos you’ll agree it was well worth it. It’s hard to believe that little tiny peanut I photographed back in January 2008 is now such a big boy.

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I also got to photograph JT’s big sister, Tayler. Oh how I’ve missed little Miss Tayler who’ve I’ve known since she was four when Shanna and I were stationed together in the military. I still give Tayler and Shanna both the credit for pulling me away from the military. If it weren’t for Tayler coaxing me into drawing again when she was just five years old I’m not so sure I’d have taken college drawing classes while in the military and it wouldn’t have made me mind wander towards more creative endeavors. Of course her mother is the one who made sure to tell me and all my supervisors that I was stupid if I didn’t get out of the military and use my creative talents. Fast forward over ten years and Tayler is fifteen and a beautiful teenager. Thankfully she was a lot more cooperative than her brother.

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Of course for me one of the things I truly looked forward to was seeing Hope & Tayler together. Hope & Tayler are God sisters. Every time I look at my baby girl I realize what a miracle she truly is – knowing that before I had her there were two miscarriages that kept me wondering if having a child for me was ever even possible. I don’t think I would have made it through that dark time in my life if it weren’t for my friend Shanna. I recall back then how much Tayler had hoped for a sister or brother so I think she was equally as proud knowing she’d be a God sister. As you can see now that they’re a little older they seem to enjoy their time together, despite their age difference. Hope looked up to Tayler so much while she was here. These two photos certainly capture a glimpse of how much I adored seeing them together.

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So Shanna I know it’s taken a few weeks to finish these but hopefully you enjoy them. I realize now that part of what stole my energy while you were here and the weeks following is this little one on the way. Hopefully you find all the photos worth the long wait. I can’t say thank you enough for taking the time to come down to visit. I hope your family and friends enjoy the photos of the kids.We miss you guys Miss Shanna!

Even miracles take a little time

“Even miracles take a little time.” ~Cinderella

Yes, this news seems like a miracle after all we’ve been through. We feel very blessed to inform you all that our family is once again expecting our third little one. We found out this past weekend that many months after our last miscarriage that finally I am pregnant again. I admit I began to think the day would never come and at times began to think giving up would be better for me emotionally than trying month after month and feeling just as heartbroken as I did in October. But this past week I’ve been reassured that miracles just take a little longer sometimes. We continue to hope God’s protecting us and this little one that’s on the way.

Today we went to my first OB appointment and it’s still too early to share anything more than the news that I am pregnant. This morning at my appointment the nurse confirmed how many times I’ve been pregnant as she did she sighed saying “You’ve been pregnant…six….times, correct?” It took so much to hold the tears back realizing that I now face this hurdle again where looking at the numbers I fear the odds are against us but I’ve dug down deep to try to remain strong and think so optimistically this time. Since finding out the news this weekend we’ve sat here debating the last few days when exactly we’d share this news. Given the fact that I have miscarried 3 out of the 5 previous times I was pregnant I think it’s obvious why we usually elect to hesitate to share this news. Though we’ve been to the doctor we have  yet to hear a heartbeat and we’re obviously just as nervous as we are excited. We decided to share this news now because we know so many of you have been just as anxiously awaiting to hear this news. There hasn’t been a day that has passed since October that I haven’t thought about our loss or the hope our family has to someday welcome another little one into this world. I recall the first few times being pregnant years ago feeling like I should hide the news until we heard the heartbeat and have learned it has only hurt us more. Many feel as though we should keep the news secret but I honestly only think it’ll make these next few weeks harder on me trying to hide the fact that I am pregnant. We have embraced this pregnancy fully and know that if anything happens you all will find out either way and continue to be there offering so much reassurance to my family.

Okay, tell us when you’re going to have that baby?
We’re still not 100% certain of the due date but after my first OB appointment today the doctor believes I’m about six weeks along. If this is correct and everything goes as planned the baby would be born sometime in March 2011.

How did your doctor’s appointment go?
Everyone from the moment I entered the doctor’s office was amazing. I’m fairly certain everyone recognized my name or recognized me passing through the office. The nurses that had seen me before were quite excited to see I had OB papers in hand and everyone offered us the warmest wishes for a healthy pregnancy. The doctor offered reassurance and said thus far there is no reason to worry. Easier said than done, but overall the appointment went well. It’s still too early to detect a heartbeat without an ultrasound. Because there are no immediate concerns with this pregnancy thus far we will have to wait a few days before our first ultrasound next Monday afternoon. Hopefully by then we’ll have a more firm due date. I know seeing a heartbeat would help me rest a little easier.

Do the kids know?
Yes, we told the kids yesterday. Jaylen is still a bit too young to understand but Hope knew right away when Jason sat down and talked to her. She’s very excited but I obviously worry how much she may worry about me and the baby. She’s told me a few times since October that she never wants “that” (meaning the miscarriage) to happen to me ever again. I adore her sweet spirit and loving support. I just pray that my body is strong enough to protect this little one through the months ahead because I don’t want my family to relive last October ever again.

How are you feeling?
The last few weeks I’ve been feeling very fatigued and have had very little energy. Beyond working, taking Jaylen to his swim lessons, and a few times doing photography I have felt like I’ve been hibernating…yes, like a bear. I’ve had quite a few crampy growing pains these last few weeks that I can officially attribute to this pregnancy. They worry me so much but the doctor said they are perfectly normal, especially after being pregnant this many times. This past weekend I began feeling very nauseous and every day the nausea has progressively gotten worse where I find myself throughout the day feeling so sick. I’ve stocked up on saltines and toast has helped curb the nausea at times. Eating lots of small meals seems to make the days go a little smoother. I’ve had a few low grade fevers and chills since the weekend. The doctor said it’s very normal during the first trimester and it’s likely my body adjusting to the many changes going on right now.

For the last couple of months as I’ve continued to cope with the emotions caused by the miscarriage this past October and since have clung to the words of this poem. I realize that things are out of my hands now and we just need to believe. So I leave you all with the words of this poem that has echo’d in my head these last few months and looking back has now given me a renewed sense of hope but has also helped remind me that I will never forget the little ones I have lost over the years.

AN ANGEL NEVER DIES
Don’t let them say I wasn’t born,
That something stopped my heart
I felt each tender squeeze you gave,
I’ve loved you from the start.

Although my body you can’t hold
It doesn’t mean I’m gone
This world was worthy, not of me
God chose that I move on.

I know the pain that drowns your soul,
What you are forced to face
You have my word, I’ll fill your arms,
Someday we will embrace.

You’ll hear that it was meant to be,
God doesn’t make mistakes
But that won’t soften your worst blow,
Or make your heart not ache.

I’m watching over all you do,
Another child you’ll bear
Believe me when I say to you,
That I am always there.

There will come a time, I promise you,
When you will hold my hand,
Stroke my face and kiss my lips
And then you’ll understand.

Although I’ve never breathed your air,
Or gazed into your eyes
That doesn’t mean I never was,
An Angel never dies.

Author Unknown

I thank you all now, knowing I can feel the love and support you all are sending our way.

Abigail’s back!

You all may remember Abigail who I photographed late last August shortly after she was born. Yes, she was such a dreamy newborn for me to photography…full of beauty and just amazing all around. Some of the photos from her session are among some of the most memorable photos in my portfolio. I owe a lot of credit to her parents who were amazingly patient and overly supportive of helping me try to pull off all the creative ideas I had. Her father, Ed Cross, is a former student of mine and is also an exceptionally talented designer and artist. After taking Abigail’s photos last year he expressed an interest in drawing a photo I had taken of Abigail for their family. Of course it’s always exciting to know when I’ve inspired someone that much that they want to do something more creatively with my work so I agreed and have enjoyed watching Ed has he’s shared progress of this drawing. He finally finished it recently and so I was thrilled to finally get together with Ed, Diana & Abigail to see the drawing in person. (here’s a link to the original photo)

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Of course there was no way I could resist capturing a few more memorable moments with their sweet little girl Abigail. She’s now ten months old and has grown so much since last August when I took her newborn photos.

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Abigail has beautiful red hair and amazing blue eyes. As you can see…she has a serious side that definitely was present if I had the camera pointed at her for too long.

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I always hesitate taking photos of the older little ones unclothed but most parents are interested in photos like this. In this case, it’s Abigail’s cute little pudgy rolls make this photo that much more priceless.

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Yes, something tells me she won’t have these pudgy baby rolls much longer…she’s very active and moved around quite a bit during their visit.

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It’s always a treat to get to see the little ones I’ve photographed as a newborn…it reminds me how fast time flies and how quickly they grow. As you can see Abigail has grown into such a beautiful happy little girl.

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Ed & Diana thanks again for stopping by and letting me capture a few more moments with Abigail. I hope your friends and family enjoy the photos of your sweet little girl…you’ve definitely been blessed!

A few more moments with Addison

This past weekend I had the opportunity to meet with Addison again for photos. It’s always rewarding to get to see the little ones I’ve photographed and see how much they’ve grown. I suppose with Addison this year has been equally rewarding knowing I’ve been able to capture a few priceless moments with Addison while her father’s deployed to Iraq. She came over for photos and was sporting her adorable mohawk that we’ve all come to love. Yes, she’s still as cute as  can be.

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It won’t surprise me if Joyia and Dave end up using some of these cute photos of Addison when she’s older…perhaps in a senior yearbook or maybe to show her future husband.

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Addison is nearly nine months old in these photos and yes, she’s pretty awesome at clapping now!

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She has a few teeth too and proudly showed them off for a few photos.

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Of course I adore her serious side…

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Dave should get a kick out of this next photo. Yes, Dave…Addison and I were practicing her push ups just for you!

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If I were to say the one most moving thing in an image, typically, I’d say the eyes make the photo. Yes, seeing this photo of Addison connects me to this adorable little girl who’s now lived more months without her father. It helps me see also just how much she’s grown since those first photos I took of her last fall. Yes, living her first year without Dave seems like way too long.

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I can’t resist sharing this behind the scenes shot of Hope & Joyia as Hope was taking photos of Addison. It’s always a treat when Hope shows interest in wanting to join with me in taking photos. She’s heard Jason and I a time or two this past year talk of how many photos I’ve taken this past year and she came in with the intent to take more photos than me. Yes, she out shot me by hundreds. Before I knew it she had taken some six or seven hundred photos. Though many were blurry or uncomposed shots I must say that after looking through all the photos she took several impressive shots. I’ve posted a few of these in flickr.

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Here are a few more priceless photos I took of Addison.

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Given that fourth of July is right around the corner Joyia brought over the flag Dave brought back from his first deployment to Iraq. It’s the same one that hung outside his tent so it was very meaningful to try to take a few patriotic photos of Addison.

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Of course Addison is a little mover these days and quickly sits up and begins moving around. It was tough to keep her still for the flag photos and as we tried to take a few photos of her sitting she got super exciting to have something new to play with. Yes, the flag was very exciting for Addison.

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My heart goes out to Addison and all the little ones who will be celebrating the fourth of July without their parents who might be deployed away from home and protecting our freedom….and I continue to pray for their safety. I know I’m one of many who can’t wait for the day to see Addison reunited with her Daddy.

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I’m sure in due time Dave will see these photos. And when he does I know seeing a few photos of both his girls will help him smile a little more.

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Something tells me Addison is helping the time pass a little faster for Joyia. It’s obvious how much joy this little girl brings her.

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The end of the year can’t come soon enough but it’s halfway over and I think Dave’s girls are going to be smiling a little more in the coming months now that he’s that much closer to coming home.

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Dave & Joyia I hope your family and friends enjoy the latest photos of Addison — it’s been a treat being a part of capturing such memorable moments with your little girl.

My letterpress business cards

“Your identity and your success go hand in hand. Many people sacrifice their identities by not doing what they really want to do. And that’s why they’re not successful.” ~Lila Swell

Many of you were here last fall when I began to establish my business and brand myself. I suppose I’m not the typical photographer. I don’t just love photography…I love design too. And I realized very early on the importance of having my photography represented with a strong brand identity. Some of you may recall me sharing the creative process with you when I worked with Daissy Linares who designed my brand identity. Yes, I admit it was tough stepping down from designing my own brand but I knew that it was more important for me to focus on photography, teaching & my studies at SCAD. And given all that happened in the fall I couldn’t be more proud to have someone as talented as Daissy step up to the challenge of creating an identity to represent me. When I finally made the decision to commit to the logo and brand I now use I recall the big factor in that decision was how much more iconic and memorable the brand was to me. I look back now at the other options I had for logos and I can’t even imagine any of those ideas to have left such an impact with me as my current brand now has.

I know most of you have been anxiously awaiting to hear more about the printing process behind my business cards. Since the fall I had given serious consideration to having my business cards printed letterpress. After doing a lot of research I contacted Nick Sambrato of Mama’s Sauce. He owns the only letterpress shop in Orlando and helped reassure me that all the ideas I hoped to pull off with my business cards were doable and ideal for letterpress. Because I am just such a photography geek and thoroughly enjoy sharing the process behind creative projects Nick agreed to let me, his new paparazzi client, into his shop to document the process to share with you all.

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I found myself photographing everything from the details of the press (a.k.a. Vogner…yes, the folks at Mama’s Sauce love their machines so much that they’ve named them!)

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A big thanks to GianCarlo (Blue) Brand who joined me for a bit to help me document some of the printing process. Thanks to him you all are able to see my enjoyment of documenting and seeing the process first hand.

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It was exciting to be there seeing the cards get printed. Letterpress printing is a very old form of printing and its very hard to find printers who are able to print letterpress. Yes, it’s a print form that is nearly obsolete in comparison to newer faster and cheaper printing methods like laser printing. But there’s something special about letterpress. You may not get it until you see it for yourself.

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Meet Brooks, the letterpress operator who printed my cards. Yes, Brooks is not the stereotypical press operator. He helps bring a youthful and hip fun touch to such an old printing process. After spending time seeing the cards printed first hand I can see why Nick trusts Brooks to take charge of his letterpress. Brooks had amazing attention to detail and spend quite a bit of time checking, double checking and yes, even triple checking colors, registration and impressions. It definitely is a tedious process that only a patient and detail oriented person could take on. For Brooks the printing process is much like an art form and he puts great care into perfecting the jobs he prints. And yes, I suppose I have to share a photo of the guy who printed my cards…he says his Mom will enjoy seeing photos of him hard at work. :)

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I think seeing the cards printed first hand helped me have a greater appreciation for my business cards. Yes, seeing every ounce of color loaded into the press helps me appreciate seeing the color that’s now on my 3 color business cards.

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Or watching the speed of the press and all it’s small details…the details that help it pump out some amazing prints.

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Throughout the printing process we continually checked color, registration and impressions.

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It was rewarding seeing each new color printed and it’s certainly helped me gain a fonder respect for letterpress than I ever had before.

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Though I know you all enjoy seeing photos of the printing process I’m sure you’re all interested in seeing the final printed cards. If you’d like to see additional photos of the printing process you’ll find more in my flickr acount.

On to my sweet new cards…

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Yes, two versions…one version is standard size and one square size. What makes them extra special is that a different image is on the back of each one.

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It was extremely tough to decide but I chose what I felt were the most iconic and memorable photos from my portfolio that would fit appropriately in the given space.

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I had Mama’s Sauce print my letterhead and envelope as well but only offset printing for these.

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The cards may seem nice from a distance but take a closer look and you’ll notice the detail and impression that makes the impact. These were printed on 220lb Lettraset cotton paper. The images were printed separately and composited/duplexed to ensure the cards were sturdy enough that the impression wouldn’t show through on the back. Yes, my cards are super thick.

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I’ve had quite a few people question my reasoning for printing letterpress. I think just looking at these next few images will be convincing enough to show my reasoning. (Additional photos of my cards can be viewed in flickr)

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A FEW QUESTIONS…
Yes, I have had a number of questions before and after having my cards printed so I thought I’d add them to this post to share them with the many out there that I know may be wondering some of these same questions.

Isn’t letterpress a lot more expensive?
Yes.

Isn’t laser or offset printing cheaper?
Yes.

Doesn’t letterpress printing take longer?
Yes.

Why didn’t you take the cheaper and faster route to have your cards printed?
I think it’s important that my brand represent the quality of work I do. Yes, I wanted it to be representative of the timeless images I’ve captured and the tireless energy I put into my photography. I wanted the cards to leave an impact with every person I give a card to…just like the impact I hope my photography leaves with people. I don’t want them to just say “thanks” when I give them a card. I want them to say “wow” or “I love your card”. To me the cards thus far have helped create the attention needed to brand my business and me as a person. They are memorable. They are the type of card that will be kept and remembered.

MY BIG THANKS…
Again, I have to give a big thanks to Daissy Linares for her creative efforts in designing my brand identity. I can’t think of a better designer to work with to design a brand for me…yes, complicated, picky me. Thanks to GianCarlo “Blue” Brand for joining in to help me document the printing process. And a huge thanks to Nick Sambrato and the rest of the gang at Mama’s Sauce. There’s no question…you guys rock.

I hope you all enjoy the cards…I’d love to hear your two cents!

Photos of Historic Orlando

Recently I learned of Orlando’s Historic Preservation Board’s call for entries for their 2011 Historical Preservation calendar. Every year they feature a set number of historical locations in Orlando in this calendar. This year they’ve chosen to feature the Holden-Parramore district which the city has been putting work into cleaning up the area which is definitely among Orlando’s troublesome low income areas. Despite this, it was very inspirational to go out and do a bit of different photography for a change. There’s something very intriguing about historical locations. As I worked on this project I found myself digging before and after to try to learn a bit more about the five featured historical locations in this district. I’ve elected to share a slideshow from flickr (below) of the photos I took. With each photo you’ll find “information” if you care to learn more about the locations (just click on “show info” at the top right). If you’d prefer you may go directly to flickr and take a look at the images in my Historic Orlando photo set where you may find learning more about the locations a little easier.

The biggest challenge I will have is deciding the three to send on to the Historic Preservation Board so if you have a flickr account and care to leave comments of your favorites I’d love to hear everyone’s opinions. I certainly have my own favorites but I must admit it’s tough to pick just three!

A big thanks to VCC alumni, Wendy Johnson, who joined me at sunrise to take photos of these historic sites. Given the area of Orlando we were in it was definitely great to have a fellow photography enthusiast with! I’m sure she may have some of her own photos to share soon too. (I can’t wait to see your photos Wendy!)